Blog Tour: Matteo By Rachel Orman

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Being born into slavery, I never thought my owner, my very mother, would sell me. And she didn’t.

Until Matteo.

I was tormented, struggling to come to terms with my new life then he narrowed it down to two things.

Pleasure. Pain.

The man confused me at every turn with his unexpected and unattainable desires.

If only he’d speak to me.

If only he’d tell me how to avoid upsetting him.

If only I could please him.

**Disclaimer: This is a DARK erotic Italian Mafia story. There are twisted behaviors in this book not everyone will be able to handle. Explicit, violent, and sexual scenes are involved. Not for the wary of heart.**

I know that the author placed a warning at the end of the synopsis, but I feel that it is necessary to put my own.  Please, please if this type of book is not for you, stop reading now.  I am serious!  This book is dark; it is not for anyone who has rape triggers or abuse triggers.  This is not a slightly dark book with a side of hearts and flowers.  THIS IS A DARK BOOK!  Has my point been made yet?  I hope so because I am moving on to my review.
I am a fan of darker books, but this one was even hard for me to read.  I had tears in my eyes on more than one occasion.  But at the same time even though some of these scenes are rape and extremely abusive they would turn erotic and hot.  Am I twisted in my head?  Possibly.  Let me make this a little clearer, Gia aka bella was sold as a sex slave, so while that does not make the situation any more right, it puts you in the frame of mind that she has.  She also enjoys it when Matteo is rough with her.  She was born into this life, she wants to be the perfect slave for Matteo, but he always finds faults in her.
Matteo, oh man I have a love/hate relationship with him.  I think he loved Gia from the moment he laid eyes on her but at the same time he was abusive and mean.  You can see why I think he did love her from the start, there are scenes when you can feel the love but then something happens and you see his nasty side.  There is one scene that made me lose all love I had from him, and I honestly never thought I would even begin to like him again.  Once we get further into the book you kind of get to see why he is the way he is.  I wish we had more of his POV, the prologue and epilogue is in Matteo’s the rest is in Gia’s.

I am still thinking about this book, days later.  I think this is going to be one of those books that stay with me for a very long time.  The subject matter was hard to get through at times and it made me feel so many emotions.  I believe that this is going to be a series, and if it is I want to read more.  Like I said it is dark, but it sucks you into the world.  I can’t say that the ending is the happiest ever after I have read, it for this story I think it fit because if it had turned saccharine sweet it would have ruined it for me.  

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A shiver ran through me. I was chained up in his basement. I’d never been restrained in such a way before. Madam never resorted to such means since she knew I never would’ve run. I had no desire to live free of enslavement. It was all I knew and all I wanted. However, feeling the cool breeze in the room and the even colder restraints on my skin made me wonder if maybe I had thought wrong all along. “I can see from the look on your face that you’ve never been locked up before, and I see that’s where Madam went wrong with you. No, you didn’t want to escape, but you don’t know how to behave. No, you don’t truly know the extent to which a punishment can go. Don’t worry, that is going to change starting now. This will throw a wrench in my initial plans for you, but I refuse to let you go now. You are mine and will be forever, so get used to the idea.” Matteo leaned against the wall in front of me, sliding his hands into his pockets as if we were carrying on a completely normal conversation. He appeared entirely at ease while I struggled with all the new emotions flooding me. After a moment of staring at me, he pushed off the wall and stood close enough I could feel his body heat. He reached down to pull his erection from his dress slacks. Sliding his hand over it slowly, he dragged the tip over my mouth. “Suck it. Get me off and I’ll leave you alone for the remainder of the night. Fail to do so and I will start your punishment now,” he said as he shoved the hot, hard, musky flesh into my mouth. I wanted to cry out that I thought the lashings from the belt had been my punishment. Instead, I sucked him down my throat and bobbed my head along his length the way he’d shown me he liked it done. The longer I sucked, the more my lips became numb and the more I realized that I really had no idea what being a slave was like. Finally, he groaned and his release filled my mouth and throat before he pulled back. As he tucked himself into his pants again he yanked my hair so I was forced to look him in the eye. “Welcome to the Italian Mafia way of life, bella.”
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Mother by day. Writer by night. I spend a majority of my day with my children and reading while my nights are filled with the sound of the keyboard as I work on my next work.

I have written in nearly every LBGT category as well as the traditional erotic romance category.
I love to try new things and learn from every piece of work I write. I’ll write just about anything once to learn from it. I’ve even ventured out of my normal erotica genre into Monster Erotica. Doubt you’ll find me writing anything not erotic as you can barely get me to even read something out of that category, but then again, you never know what I might try next.

Never stop learning. Try everything at least once.

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Review: Cartel By: Lili St. Germain

The first full length Gypsy Brothers novel from the smash hit author Lili St. Germain.

How much is a life worth?

I grew up in Colombia, the daughter of a wealthy drug lord. I lived a life of extravagance, until one day a drug run went horribly wrong and everything came crashing down around us.

I was given away. A payment for a debt. The Gypsy Brothers Motorcycle Club became my new owners, and I did everything I could to survive.

But falling in love with the man who owned me wasn’t part of the plan…

If you have read the Gypsy Brother series by Lili St. Germain you know who Dornan Ross is and the evil that he is capable of.  You have heard of Mariana and had a glimpse of her past but in Cartel we learn how she became a part of Dornan’s life and how while their relationship is toxic and destructive, in a sick and twisted way  they are perfect for one another.  If you haven’t read the Gypsy Brother series yet, I would before continuing.  For me I think it makes Cartel a more intense read, because even while Dornan is a sick twisted fuck, he always has been, but I think something makes him even worse, something we have yet to read but at times there is a glimpse of a heart in his body, and that right there is what has made me go from hating him to being curious as to how this will unfold.

Mariana isn’t all sweet and innocent either, and while I felt major emotion for what she has gone through so far, at the same time I keep thinking to myself the bitch is in a twisted way deserving of this.  Yeah that makes me sound like a bitch but you know what?  Oh well, that is how I felt while reading it and I am not going to apologize for how I feel.

I love Lili St. Germain’s writing.  She knows how to make the perfect recipe of twisted, dark, angsty, tear inducing, throw your kindle in frustration mix that has you addicted to her books.  I loved Cartel, and I am anxious to see what Kingpin and Empire will bring to this dark twisted world that Dornan and Mariana live in.

Blog Tour: Cartel By: Lili St. Germain

How much is a life worth?

Mariana Rodriguez is the eldest daughter of a Colombian drug lord. Growing up in Villanueva, Colombia, she has never wanted for anything. Private schools, a lavish lifestyle, and the safety of the Cartel that her father works for.
At nineteen, she’s got her entire life mapped out, and what a good life it’s going to be: graduate from college, move to America, and finally be free from the stifling grip of the Cartel.
Only, her father messes up. A shipment of cocaine – a very large, very valuable shipment – is seized by the authorities whilst under his care and he becomes liable for the debt. Half a million dollars worth of cocaine.
Half a million dollars he does not have.
But he has a daughter, a very smart one, a daughter who would give up her very existence and offer herself as payment for her father’s sins, to ensure her family survives.

But falling in love with the man who owned her wasn’t part of the plan …

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His eyes lit up at that as his gaze travelled across my chest and wandered down to the most private of places. I was clothed and covered in the right places, but in front of him, I felt completely naked. The feeling was unnerving and delicious all at once, which only confused me further.
So he’s sexy as hell. It doesn’t matter. He’s the enemy.
‘It doesn’t matter anyway,’ I added hastily. ‘I’ve got a nasty case of the clap. Better not rape me or your pico might fall off.’ I thrust my chin out as I used the Spanish term for ‘small dick’, smirking at the Gypsy Brother as his warm hands continued to roam every bit of bare flesh on my arms.
Dornan laughed at my admission, a throaty noise full of gravel and insolence that made me increasingly unsteady on my feet.
‘I’m not going to rape you,’ he replied, amusement dancing in his dark eyes. ‘And you don’t have the clap. So don’t use that one on me.’
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Lili writes dark romance, suspense and paranormal stories. Her serial novel, Seven Sons, was released in early 2014, with the following books in the series to be released in quick succession. Lili quit corporate life to focus on writing and so far is loving every minute of it. Her other loves in life include her gorgeous husband and beautiful daughter, good coffee, Tarantino movies and spending hours on Pinterest.
She loves to read almost as much as she loves to write.







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Review: Number Thirteen by Bella Jewel

**AUTHOR NOTE – This is NOT a BDSM Romance**

We’re thirteen girls, captive, slave to our master. 
A master we’ve never seen.
Obedience will become all we know in our shallow existence. It is the only emotion we’re permitted to feel.
When we’re bad, we’re punished. When we’re good, we’re rewarded. 
Our scars run deep. Yet we survive, because we have to… 
because HE teaches us to.
All of us are special, we feel it with everything we are.
He has us for a reason, but it’s a reason we don’t know.
We’ve never seen his face, but we know that something deeply broken lies beneath the darkness. With every touch, with every punishment, we know it. 
Then something changed. 
He showed me who he truly is.
Now I want him.
I’ll go against everything I know to be with him. 

A monster. 

My monster. 

Loving him is a sin, but a sinner I am. I won’t stop until I see every part of him. Even the parts he keeps locked deep down inside. 

I am Number Thirteen, and this is my story.


My Review:

Normally I would go over each of the characters when I do my review, but for this one I am not going to do that.  I would normally break down what I loved about them or hated, but for this review I am just going to explain the emotions I felt while reading this book.  Let me be very clear.  This is a dark romance, there is no BDSM elements at all in this book.  There is a Master and there are thirteen slaves.  These girls all have dark pasts, some worse and darker than others.  There are rewards for good behavior and punishments for bad behavior.  The punishments aren’t pretty. They are there for a reason.  At times I wanted to hate the Master, especially when he would punish Number Thirteen, or when he wanted to earn her trust but not give his to her. 

When the Master finally began to open up, show who he was, you understand better why he is who he is and why he does what he does.  This isn’t about ownership, this is about healing and understanding.  He feels for the girls in his own way, and the girls feel for him, some feel hate others feel relief and one feels love.  There is a feeling of a Stockholm syndrome going on but I don’t think that was truly the case.  I began to feel for everyone involved, especially the Master and Number Thirteen.  At times I cried, others I swore and felt my blood pressure get high, and at the end I felt at peace. 

I love Bella Jewel’s books, each one I have read has made me a bigger fan of hers.  Number Thirteen is different from her others.  Like I said before it is dark, but it is beautifully healing at the same time.  I can’t explain it.  There is beauty that comes from pain, beauty that comes from healing, and beauty that comes from trust.  I was drawn in and couldn’t put it down.  I can understand that some people wouldn’t want to read this book, it isn’t pretty, but please give it a chance. If you stopped it, pick it up and start it again.   I am not sure if Ms. Jewel plans on making this a series or writing a follow up because there is enough left open that she could and I hope she does.